Pox

I’m so happy that I’m still doing well. Still losing weight and eating good. I tried on pants I haven’t been able to wear for almost 4 years. I tried to see how close I could get to fitting in them a few months ago, and they barely went up my thighs. But now I can zip and button them! They’re about a size 10, though sizes vary depending on brand, but it works for me. I’m going to try to lose at least 8 pounds in August, and I’m sure after that they’ll look great. It makes my middle pudgy, but being a little more active will help.

The rest of me looks thinner too, especially my face. That horrible double chin is gone, and I feel thinner aroud my upper torso. One part that really bothers me is my upper arms, but even they feel a little better. I can’t believe the difference so far, but I have a ways to go to being the weight I want.

I was afraid I would overeat this weekend, but I did really good. I brought my own food to where I was going, and made a fresh guacamole that was a great filler alternative to other things. And fortunately I seem unable to eat too much. I can stop when my stomach is satisfied and turn down temptation, something I’ve had a hard time doing for years. I get full so fast and on so little, it’s amazing.

Hopefully my next blog will be positive too!

I got overly curious today about my weight and decided to go ahead and weigh myself– though I want to try and weigh myself only on Saturdays. I’m excited that I’ve lost 4 pounds since I last weighed myself last Saturday, and I only have to lose 3 more pounds until I’m no longer clinically obese! Yay overweight! 190 is my “mini-mini goal”, and 185 is set as my mini goal because it marks 10% if my initial weight totally GONE. I reset my overall goal to 159, the point where my “ideal weight” begins. When I reach that point, I will make a new mini goal and new overall goal, which will probably  be the weight I’ll try to maintain for the rest of my life.

I’ve made a lot of changes to how I eat since I’ve began this. I used to eat all I wanted, whatever I wanted, and when I wanted. I ate disgustingly huge portions of food, and it was rarely ever healthy. I used half&half in my coffee, loaded cheese in everything, loved greasy fried foods, and I craved various fast foods and sweets. I drank soda, and had fatty meat in almost every meal. I’d often eat until it hurt, then feel hungry again just a while later. I was also horribly dehydrated, and would go for days without having anything to drink, and never drank straight water.

I never thought I could lose weight. I thought cravings and “hunger” would always control me, because it makes me feel good. I’d always cry and wish I could eat whatever I wanted and not be fat, or to be able to control my hunger like my friends can. But since I’ve started living like this, I can’t eat nearly as much as I used to. I’m able to say no to things, and I’ve been drinking 5-7 20oz bottles of water a day. I have personally cut a lot of things from my diet that I know are not healthy for me. This is hard, because I have to turn down a lot of my favorite foods, but its getting easier the further I get into living this way.

Thing I no longer eat include:

-Red meats
-Most white meat
-Dairy (with the exception of small amounts of cheese and a rare container of yogurt)
-Anything with high-fructose corn syrup
-Fried food
-Fast food
-Refined starches
-Any form of soda

These are just some things I’ve cut from my diet, and I’ve been keeping this very well. Though I’m trying not to eat many kinds of meat, I do eat seafood. Fish, shrimp, scallops– I couldn’t live without these. I base my “diet” off of weight watchers, and I try to keep a conservative mindset rather than a lenient one. I’ve noticed that people who think “oh, I can eat one or two points over” or “I can dip into my extra points” either end up not losing much or at all or completely quitting and going back to the way they were. I’ve had to train my mind from wanting to take the maximum I can, to wanting to take even a little less than I’m “allowed”. I never thought I could break that, but I’m doing a good job so far.

Hopefully I can come back to this blog in the future and be proud that I’m still eating well and haven’t slipped up. I’m proud of myself so far, I just hope my motivation doesn’t fade.

Food Log

I just began my lifestyle change on the 1st, and I haven’t slipped up once yet. I’m really motivated, no bullshitting around. I want a long, happy, healthy life, things I haven’t cared about in my past. Now that I’m building a life for myself, this is where I want to start. I’m thankful I’m young and have plenty of time, and I want to make good decisions NOW.

Food Log