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I lost a surprise 5 pounds this last week and a half I didn’t expect to have lost much, if not gain because the food I’d been eating hadn’t been the most healthy.  Maybe the calorie boost in my diet jump-started my weight loss when I started watching the kinds of food I was eating again. Though sometimes I don’t realize how little I eat, so though I ate some fatty foods, I probably didn’t eat much of it.

Who cares! I’m losing again, I had been semi-plateaued at around 159-160 for a few weeks. And now I’m just a few pounds shy of being in the 140’s. I don’t want to lose too fast, becasue I want to keep off my weight. I hope my belly chub starts disapating more soon, I think I’ll eventually have to do some pilates or some kind of toning program. Nothing too much, I can’t stand exercising lol.

I’m getting re-motivated to lose weight again, and really start thinking about it more. I’ve grown accustomed to a healthy diet, not eating meat, not drinking soda and avoiding many sweets. But I really want to do more. Maybe I want to be too thin, but I don’t personally know what weight would be best for my body. People tell me that 130 for me would be too thin, but I don’t think so. I want to have a flat stomach, thin upper arms and slimmer thighs. I’m 5′7″, so I’m not a giant but I’m not particularly short either. It’s hard, I don’t want to look sickly thin…but I do want to be small. I’m getting to the point where this is soon going to be possible. I’m going to have about a month break before winter quarter begins at the college, so maybe I’ll be able to become more active since I’ll have more time.

I know I’m getting close. I’ve lost 51 pounds in just 5 months through diet alone. My motivation hasn’t faded, and I feel more ready to lose weight than ever. I’m seeing great results, people are positively commenting and I can’t wait until I’ve reached my goals.

I’ve done it! I’ve reached my major goal, even a week early. I’ve totally re-written my goals, updated my weight tracker, and I’m ready to move on from this point. I went from 205 and being obese, to 159 and no longer being over weight in less than 5 months.

Even though  its the holiday season, I plan on totally keeping to my way of eating. I’m going to start drinking more water, because I’m always very dehydrated.  I really need to work on that, it’s always been a problem for me.

I’ve been craving a lot of food lately, and it’s concerning me a little. I’m sure it will pass, and I don’t really think I’m even over eating. I’m starting to feel guilty whenever I put anything in my mouth, and some days I don’t eat enough, and others I do eat more than what I’d like to. I haven’t gained, so I’m not super worried, I’m just going to look forward from this point!

I can’t wait to see my progress in a few months from now, I never expected to make it this far. The difference is amazing, and to be 130… I know I can do it! I’ve already lost 46 pounds, what’s another 29? I just have to keep this up. And I will, for life.

I’d like to thank everyone on this site too, if it wasn’t for the people here and the tools offered, I wouldn’t be as far along as I am now. Thank you!

I haven’t been on this site much lately. I feel bad, but I don’t feel that I need it as much anymore. I’ve totally changed my eating lifestyle, and it isn’t a challenge to maintain. I’d like to be here to support others that are just beginning or are struggling in their journeys but with things going on, I don’t really have time now.

I’m almost to my first major goal. Almost 45 pounds gone, and almost to the point where my BMI is in the healthy range. Only 3 more pounds to go, and I’ll finally not be over weight. It feels strange, like I’m almost reaching what I’ve always felt as the impossible. But I don’t want to stop when I get there. I want to start a brand new set of goals, and finally set my goal weight. When I reach that, I think I’ll be more active here since I’ll be starting anew.

I feel so much thinner and happier with myself, but there are parts of me I still want to work on. This whole time I’ve never exercised or had a routine, and I never really want that. Maybe something unofficial like sit-ups in the morning, because I really want to tone my stomach. Having a flat tummy is one of my dreams, and it still feels a little far off. But I think I’ve proven to myself that anything I want is possible, I mean I’ve made it this far.

I’m proud of myself, and I’ll hopefully be active here soon.

I couldn’t wait until my weigh-in day to weigh myself, someone left the scale out so I stepped on, and I’m down two pounds! That’s 35 pounds lost total, and 5 more until 40 I’m so excited, I’m going to try and lose the next 5 pounds by the end of this month.

It’s been hard to eat well this week, but surprisingly I have. My dad decided to order two pizzas from my favorite local pizza place, but I stayed downstairs and didn’t have any or any of the leftovers the day after. Then the other day we went to Subway, and after he ordered his toasted cheese covered spicy Italian sandwich, I still ordered my veggie with no cheese. And last night, after I made myself a nice healthy wrap for dinner, he makes buffalo wings and tater tots I don’t know how on earth I resisted that either. But I did! And though its irritating that he keeps making fatty food right in front of me, it makes me feel proud that I’m able to make good choices. He almost made fun of me for not eating red meat and poultry, but then I quickly reminded him of how much weight I’ve lost. (Not made fun of me as to hurt my feelings, just joking around). I told him I’ve changed a lot of my diet just for my health, not because I don’t like it. I love red meat,   I was even very stressed yesterday and today… but I’m still sticking to it

Even if I don’t reach my goals by the dates I set, I won’t feel bad because I know I’m doing so well. I’ll reach them eventually!

It’s a better week, I’m almost in the 160’s.  I feel a lot better and I got a plenty of sleep last night, which I’ve really been needing. I’ve still been eating well but I really need to drink more water. I know I’m dehydrated, but I hate drinking plain water. I normally put crystal light in my water bottle, but the aspartame gives me headaches once in a while. I’ll find another alternative, I’m just really picky about what I drink.

Just took a nice hot shower.. I can tell I’m a lot thinner, its a great feeling. I can’t wait until my stomach isn’t all lumpy though, soon it’ll be fairly flat.. I just have to keep on going! Oh! And I’m just entering my 4th month of eating right. 3 full months of doing great! I’m really excited.

Bleeg just rambling. Nothing really important.

I’m not sick, besides from anxiety, but I feel like I haven’t been eating as well as I have been. I need to get back on that. I’m going to start writing what I eat everyday  and make sure I don’t put anything bad into my mouth. More fruits and vegetables! And water… I keep forgetting to drink and I know I’m dehydrated. Aaaah I just need to get this junk out of me. I’m going to weigh in on Sunday, and as long as I haven’t gone up I’ll be glad. I just started some courses at a community college and it’s really stressful.. and I have problems with that. It tends to go beyond worry and into panic attacks and vomiting, lack of sleep and poor concentration. I used to just get nauseous, but for the last year I’ve been throwing up very frequently. It stopped during the summer when I didn’t have may worries, but now that I’m back in school I can feel it building. It really only happens in the morning after I wake up, I’ll feel extremely nauseated and dizzy, my heart will flutter and sometimes I can hold it down, I’m just thankful its not as painful as it used to be. I wish I could turn my brain off sometimes and just focus on the work at hand, but I’ve found that pills the doctors give me change my personality and I don’t like that. The only thing I can do is really live with it, or pop a lorazepam if I know its going to be bad.

I’m wearing a size 10 pair of pants now, and all my 12s are getting too big and falling down… so maybe I feel like I’ve gained and it’s all just in my head. I don’t know I really don’t want to start this cycle again.. but I’m excited for these classes so I’m sure it’ll go away once I get into the swing of things.

I hope everyone has a good rest of the week, almost half way through it, keep working toward your goals!

I’m getting even closer to my first major goal. I have accomplished many mini-goals that have helped me come this far. I am now 15 pounds overweight,  instead of 45.. and that gap is continuing to close. Within the next 6 months, I hope to be my ideal weight, but I’m not going to concern myself with that now. Keeping myself focused on the smaller milestone goals is really the trick for me. That and seeing everyone on this site, feeding off of your guys’ motivation and excitement, it really keeps me going! Thank you all.

A lot of you keep up with The Biggest Loser, but I’m gone on Tuesdays when it airs hopefully I’ll be able to catch it online. It’s not really my style of losing weight, since I hate exercising and haven’t purposely worked out in years. But seeing the contestants progress I’m sure will be encouraging too. I’m really more into documentaries on subjects like obesity in America  instead of seeing people being screamed at in  gym. But I’ll give the show a shot

I’m starting some classes at a community college on the other side of the city, and hopefully I’ll be able to make good choices with the food I eat. I’ll probably being my own food and water, since there are pop machines all over the campus.  There are a lot of sushi places in Seattle, one of my favorite healthy meals. Maybe I’ll get more walking in too since I’ll be taking the bus and having to transfer half way there. I’m really excited, for the classes and to continue to get closer to my goal.

I was digging through my closet today, and I ran across a pair of pants I haven’t seen for months. I’ve had them for years and could never really fit into them, but got the pants more as a goal to fit into after I had lost weight. They’re a size 11 l.e.i., a brand I know runs small in their sizes. I had tried them on before I’d started changing my diet a few months ago, and I could barely get them past my thighs.

But today, I tried them on..and they fit A little snug, but not much buldge and I can definately breathe in them. I’m so shocked, I don’t know what to do with myself. But I’ve already set another goal. To fit in the next size down in this brand. I have a size 9 l.e.i. that I can’t fit into yet, but I hope soon I will :> Maybe  by November. I have many small mental goals that I’ve been accomplishing lately, and thats a big thing thats been keeping me going. This is just a nice surprise!

I need to start drinking more water.. I had been doing good with that, but I’ve been dehydrated lately. Waking up to cramps in my foot and calves, but thats my fault.  I just hope I keep it up!

I have met my mini-goal of weighing 185! c: That’s 20 pounds lost, or 10% of my starting weight totally gone. I can’t believe I haven’t wavered at all so far… I went from having no self control to easting totally healthy and having portion control literally over night. I mentally had to change.. and I did. I’m so proud of myself, it feels great and I hope I continue to progress. I can’t fathom how I’ve done this, I never thought it would ever happen. I thought I’d always be stuck overweight, the big one of the group, always shopping for my clothes in a larger section, but now I know that its only a matter of time until thats all over.

I have 25 more pounds to lose until I’m no longer overweight. Only 25, and I’m not intimidated. I’ll continue to set mental goals and have self control, because I know in the end its worth it. Then from there, who knows. However much I decide to weigh within my range.

This site has helped me greatly, reaing experiences and peoples daily life, and though I’m not an active member of the crowd, I love to obseve from afar. It gives me encouragement that there are so many people trying to better themselves and having so many people be sucessful. I admire you all.

I’m so happy that I’m still doing well. Still losing weight and eating good. I tried on pants I haven’t been able to wear for almost 4 years. I tried to see how close I could get to fitting in them a few months ago, and they barely went up my thighs. But now I can zip and button them! They’re about a size 10, though sizes vary depending on brand, but it works for me. I’m going to try to lose at least 8 pounds in August, and I’m sure after that they’ll look great. It makes my middle pudgy, but being a little more active will help.

The rest of me looks thinner too, especially my face. That horrible double chin is gone, and I feel thinner aroud my upper torso. One part that really bothers me is my upper arms, but even they feel a little better. I can’t believe the difference so far, but I have a ways to go to being the weight I want.

I was afraid I would overeat this weekend, but I did really good. I brought my own food to where I was going, and made a fresh guacamole that was a great filler alternative to other things. And fortunately I seem unable to eat too much. I can stop when my stomach is satisfied and turn down temptation, something I’ve had a hard time doing for years. I get full so fast and on so little, it’s amazing.

Hopefully my next blog will be positive too!